Bridge/Carried, video clip (full length: 5m 23s), 2012-2013
Ascension, video clip (full length 2m), 2012
From the body of work As I Am, Changing, a series of self-portraits in video and collage. As a Californian living in New York for the first time, I was fascinated by the changing environment. The seasons became a complementary or contrasting background for me to present my evolving sense of self.
The longing to change can degenerate into an anxiety-driven obsession, manifested in the body turning against itself. Physical and psychological rest painfully avoided or taken at the expense of another. Lasting transformation is often caused by indirect forces; a random discovery may outweigh a multitude of deliberate attempts. Some change, like the seasons, is only granted by the passing of time, and marks cyclical stages instead of linear progress.